WHY MUST THE PEOPLE WITH A BIT OF POWER IN THEIR JOBS...seek to harm others with lesser power in their LIVES?
and I AM speaking of Women Hurting Other WOMEN!WHY when they make an agreement to do a thing and then not actually keep that agreement - or word.
HOW much time is wasted of Our lives in the talking and the hand wringing then NO Forward progress has been made: because If we give Power to those telling US they NEED TO HELP US.. we begin to believe they are the ONLY hope.... OBI WAN.. and we have been distracted and duped:
Thereby we have failed ourselves, for losing sight of our own Destination and Agency..as women.
This system we live in is fractured by an ancient paradigm PATRIARCHY: One generation of women learns what she needs to do to survive and teaches it to her daughter; perhaps in a altered or mutated form from her fellow mothers and grandmothers, but even so it seems we had a good enough life...
We look back and long for days when Christmas was not the social and media pollution that it came to in 2013.
(Yes I love the idea of the Victorian Christmas Mythology and my childhood seemed to sparkle with a notion of it, not as some rich upper crust Charles Emerson Winchester, the III'd Had;.. but in same fondness he held for his own memories of that 'simpler' time. (episode "Dear Sis: S7 #14 Dec.1978) [love to write more]
but I digress only to a point; that we Look Back and realize something is missing Now we once had, Holding to that Mythology is a way to preserve both good and bad things.
But when did women start betraying, stabbing each other in the back and demoralizing one another especially AS PART OF THEIR JOB Description?
You can say: "old Testament" day # 8 when another women appeared on the scene.. yes??? ---- so does that then, predate Prostitution as the Oldest Profession??
It seems I have walked through FIRE..several times now MANY Actually, I was broken very badly but even with people well meaning tethering me to the 'choose LESS THAN' ground... I did rise up like a fucking Phoenix, Several times I rose.........I kinda wondered why I was even alive many times; No I was not in the "Kandahar Bed, Bath & Beyond" .... I was safely 'here in my 'hometown' as Pink Floyd might say.
So how many times can we break; before Age becomes a factor in the fighting off these other women in power? and why am I still alive?
I am alive because of another woman or two or three or Four!; They are Friends! the real kind, the one who lift You up and share Their pain and loss and You cry for them because their loss is your loss and their pain is yours.
Their Pets pain is just as important to You; Because: LOVE IS LOVE.
I am not sure what I am now.. the PHOENIX doesn't feel like A Rising up ------
But its really is: if i were honest with myself or had better insight in the Now.
The fire i have walked through most recent is not over but it should have been a day or so ago;
yet information can change how we see what our options are; an acerbic message from a man with great power over women can torch your delusions [you hold] thinking that ship ain't sinking..
couldn't be clearer if I had an iPad speaking to me (Do they talk like those iPhones do???)
Sometimes it isnt so hard to read between the lines when your mind is opened to the facts. or just open.
Sometimes we need to walk or RUN from situations even when our Mythology tells us to: STAY, conform, consent, agree, comply, and suffer through every day knowing 'something' is not right.. with that picture.
Someone I don't know Inspired me to act, someone I do know compelled with Love and urgent information, and forgotten boxed up memories of my dog's spirit.. these 2 people... and the 3rd who suffers a loss,and a 4th in her quiet struggle Alone.... all converged in time and space to intersect with the wall of Fire i had to walk though: 3 against one...!
one friend laughed as i told her of the meeting dynamics, on the phone - and said: They ARE AFRAID OF YOU! ..for this friend to say this was profound -she saw what i did not..
**OH.. I did not see that until i typed - 3 adversarial women against me in that meeting and the 4 women on my side in the outside world!! not even knowing one another.. I DID HAVE 3 or 4! behind me (Maybe more if you count some twitter friends [men and women] who are Kind and Generous with support and teachings)
So my fight was not lost, i was not broken this time and I have gained ground on my own behalf.
My fight was a Disagreement of an Agreement THEY made without my consent!
My disagreement was a disapproval of being Bullied by other women [or men]
I lack the power to lie or manipulate or scam that makes me the 'Minority Report' in this Fractured system of systems........
I refuse to PLAY with them any longer appears to be the correct answer if I ask myself!
I only wish I could help others see they do NOT have to Play either.
